Federation has always been a stressful thing for me. I didn't do it the last two years since my last teacher didn't like it anymore. I've done it 4 times and the last time I did it with a migrane feeling like I was going to throw up and we left early. I've gotten three Superiors though so I've gotten a little trophy, a goal of mine from when I did it my first year in I think 6th or 7th grade. Memorizing is hard for me and you have to memorize one piece for federation. I practiced a lot but I was still nervous. This time the judges weren't as intimidating and even though I messed up a few times in my memorized piece, I got a SUPERIOR! I was so relieved and happy! Phew! Then off to ballet and Xanthe's baptism!
There are so many things that make up a person. I know that "things" isn't the right word, but I can't think of something that adequately describes what a person even would be made of. Dreams, accomplishments, interests, regrets, mistakes, wishes, relationships, etc. I love ballet. I want to teach ballet, and I want to dance ballet. It's part of who I am. But my heart also yearns for the actress side of me. The little bite of real acting that I got at the age of ten in a production of Babes in Toyland in Salt Lake City. The countless drives to Ogden for rehearsals of Music Man when I was twelve. The ten-hour dress rehearsals of Jana's plays throughout high school. I miss that. My heart yearns for the flute. The peak of my playing my Senior year when I was practicing daily and could play Carnival of Venice like a pro. When I began to see what my practicing had accomplished and considered going on to play in a symphony. I miss French. Learning an entire other ...
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